It’s My Birthday :)

8.10.2020
Coyote Groove, OH
I went to a Tropidelic show for the weekend to celebrate. I had the best time ever! I got to dance sing and express myself the way I like to express myself. I wanted to walk around and vend but I could feel people watching me. You know when you watch people watch you? I saw a guy who pretended to be single when I first met him with his now fiancé. The hello was uncomfortable but it came with an apology which was cool. I saw the boys being ass holes and honestly didn’t want anything to do with their vibes. Helena was there and I have the softest spot for her and got to spend some time with her.

All I want to do is vend and mind my own business. Waiting for farmers markets to start back up in Florida and still hoping Reggae Rise Up is happening. I’ll be vending and I can’t wait to see all my peoples. For now I’m kinda just going out to shows low key vending and celebrating my birthday for a hot minute 🙂 I’ve spent the last few months trying to run my business with so much interference its silly. I’m going to hop around and do that thing I do until things settle down. Most people won’t know where I am until I show up or post about it later. It’ll make popping up fun again.

Being stationary let me see on a micro level how people behave. From my Ledges experience I saw people get uncomfortable with me being happy. Singing dancing meditating and running and just taking care of myself pissed them off and it was so weird . I got to hear people call me things like a “trust fund baby” and other untrue bullshit that I can’t even bother trying to validate. I saw people pretend to be nice to me but because they felt uncomfortable with my being they created false narratives for their comfort. I kind of like it better when people don’t know who I am. They continue to wish you well.

Until Next time <3